And once again, I failed.: Tuesday, June 27, 2006
I think; therefore I am. Am I really?
Differences exist:
Between wanting and being, difference defines the thin line between them.
Differences exist:
Between ideal and reality, difference defines the mirror between them.
And because differences exist, conformity exist.
For without either, neither shall exist.
To conform - A responsibility that seemingly unescapable in reality;
Or not to conform - An undertaking that seemingly meet its death in reality.
If the differences are accepted, then a ticket to a smooth journey is issued.
If the differences are voiced, then chaos shall befall upon the speaker.
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Lessons I learnt today:
- Differences exist, no matter how hard you try to accept its perspective.
- Conformity to differences IS reality - struggle or die. I died. Finito.
- Keeping silent about differences is the key to survival in reality - speak and you die. I was silent. Still, I failed.
- I spoke, I communicated; Yet I was still too inconspicuous. And then I failed.
- Wanting can never equate to being, no matter how I try. I always fail.
Summing it all up... Failure - that's who I am.
"Give me one moment in time when I'm more than I thought I could be..." And that moment shall never come in this lifetime. Nor the next. Never. Ever.
